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Could Tell A Love
03:24
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She loves me not
I remember
Vigilance poured into such a simple sleight of hand
Lonely in my embrace, I knew she wept!
Her petals sighing, like a withering rose!
Black my heartache with every word she spoke
All my guts and vitals torn and
All my shedded shame
Merely to justify my final sunk cost fallacy...
Visions of my obsession, fading from my sight
With a heavy heart and heavier hand
She returns to Babylon!
With a taste for solemnity
She sleeps in an early grave
I’ll take her life
To satisfy my love tonight
Laid bare, the quivering larvae
Turned to expose my shame
Drop dead
Motherfucker
I am the one who lets this go
With a taste for solemnity
She sleeps in an early grave
With a heavy heart and heavier hand
I know what I must do!
Don’t be afraid, my dear
It’s just a trick of the light
Open your heart
And trust the pallbearer
No more desolation
Opened wrist cries out in silence
Spelled on the face, pure ecstasy
A final climax
She thought it odd
Through tear-drenched eye, hearts racing
My love never lets me go
Staring vacantly
Pale white and gloss-less skin, now stained deep scarlet
Sealing a kiss on scant lips, she draws her final breath
Unwieldy, my tongue moves to cauterize the flesh, sinking further into her walls
Silky breasts pressed more tightly than when she lived
I love her cold frame
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Forever Beautiful...
01:50
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She, entombed in a quiet seclusion
Where even screams cannot escape
The word “youth” no longer holds any meaning
I pressed, and drained, careful to tease the scent
Smile and show me radiance forever beautiful…
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No!
So sang the lachrymal morning to its gray companion
“Forever you will lie in wait” and kissed the horizon
I watched them dance, six alike since that night
Left envious by the turning of the world itself…
She lays somewhere that the sun can’t even reach
Scorned, un-rotting and laughing-like, a refrain I come to believe:
She made me worthless to myself
I made me worthless to myself
I made me worthless
My satin lover loves alone, made happy as I leer to myself
Sure as the sky runs out of light
I loved her
Now I love her memory
You let me go too soon
Tears can’t begin to prepare myself
For what I had done to your heart
And there is so much to fear in the afterlife
In how little say we have in it at all
“At all” is the penance I pay
For keeping the world from you
Knowing that it would break your heart (would only break your heart)
Can I stay and live this lie?
Just to stay true to you
I took your life into my hands and stole you from Death
So cast the stones
From angel throes
I’ll reap exactly as I sow
If somber’d is my heart
All I want is what’s coming to me
What’s coming…
My final chapter awaits…
I let go of it all and watched as the nothing changes
Within my grasp, the relief I sought
Rumored and faithless
My stake in this: to make peace with myself
With every step toward my destiny
I am determined to stand up and face my life
As one would rise and face the mirror
It’s hard to even look
Knowing I deserve so much better than this
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One look over the vestibule
Reminds of what I lost
For you were so cold
And lonely in my despair
There was so much love still owed
And in spite of affected rhetoric
You could not deign to share any of it with me
Still, desire is rooted deep inside envy and for the solemnity of language I am no match
Glazing over the stationery, thin-worn from abuse
I give into weakness
Just for tonight…
As the embers of the day fell
And slid through the two-way mirror (split into four colors)
I had turned and tithed, so sure
If only to deny the sun (blinding me with its rays)
I set my self-deception aside
Enter the night your heart took on kaleidoscopic traits
In black and blue ink all my fears were given form and became far too much to bear
I wait
Tearing through to grasp at something obscure
To find… the truth
The saddened shroud of a mist left in its wake
Too cold… to touch
So lost inside
I search the past
To find an absolute
When my eyes take in the space between the budlike twisted language
I begin to notice striking characteristics
Ornate descriptions of the love that she’d given
As if written in lament, somber affections
This time
Through stained glass
Unto my hands
I see the convergence of past deadlines
Vice pulled her closer to hell
Like a moth drawn to flame
Even as it drags me
I refuse to sink into deceit
The only difference between falsehoods and epiphanies
Is that the former is boundless and the latter never comes cheap
I would only lose
When I fell into lust with you
Salvation is far away from myself
I’ll save your soul for the both of us
By the powers vested in me
With this, I can overcome anything
My own strength never felt so right
I will settle for nothing less than the “truth”
Even if it takes all I have
And with my seven sins
I’ll absorb your guilt and purge it through resilience
Just to kiss it goodbye
And remove the veils placed carefully to blind my eyes
I will be heard at the end of my day
Drowning out your voices
Because it’s become apparent
In this trial by fire
Only the living end up burned
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5. |
A Return To Melancholy
06:30
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No!
Every sigh heaved a ton heavier
As that familiar state settled in
Because when someone stands on your chest
Breathing in is only half the function
The walls begun to close in
The melancholy assumed its form
From there a revolution took root inside me
And spurned my nerves to fail
Cornered Again
Halted Process
By A Sense Of
Gravity Unknown To The Ocean’s Boundless Fathoms
One foot after the other
As I try to collect myself
Faced with the reality
I was choking on my own vanity
Nobody seeks the truth
When the end result is worse than fiction
The proverbial Pandora’s box was opened
On morbid curiosity
Tracing all over the words I was not meant to know
“A tragedy far too great in ink might be your own”
Retaliation against her “betrayal”
Was nothing but a poor excuse
I was too afraid to take my place as the letter’s subject
I’ll never know how long she waited to
Pool our hearts and bleed together
I threw away the one chance I had left for my own redemption
“Why? This is no fault of mine”
But turning around makes it clear
You cannot point the finger at that which is not there
Leaving one choice
Break all the mirrors!
My despair gives way to hate
Like a thorn in my side
It never stops
What have I done?
(What have you done?)
I don’t know how much more I can take
On paper skin
Crimson spills
The mirror’s glass splintered into shards
I would hate the water for it reflects my face
Boarding up the windows
This is not enough
Soon the farce
Will end itself
You’ll be shoulder to floor
As Porphyria Once Went
Regret
Sadness
Bathed within her ashes
Hatred
Malice
Bathed in her scorching ashes
I check my sides
Caught off by the witch’s laughter
I hear the voice... of Morgana
Her words rang inside in lyrical lightweight tones
In my head where thoughts are at war she turns to make her home
She fed on my vitality much like carrion birds
Feeding on the weakened
Goading me to shed my mortal coil
“Oh, son, I know it well
Your ambition has given me strength and created your own hell”
Desperate to make it end
I scream into the sky (I am so lost)
I made a promise to see it through
And this cannot last
Resolving to leave the damage done
Tomorrow I will be gone
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No one shall know of the pain I wrought
In the attempt to "better myself"
The ideal for which I longed was viewed
Through meaningless dull eyes
The saddened shroud of a mist left in its wake
Lifted without so much as a thought
Turned to face a living ghost
The throbbing in my head
Gives way to a chorus of sorts
"Heaven might be too crowded for the likes of you"
Virtue has stolen my crown
Raped by the light of Christ
"Heaven might be too crowded for the likes of you"
Sobbing through a smile
I can only lament this pathetic turn of events
I cry out for the death of my love
There is only one responsible
The cursed witch - she’s to blame
Dancing for your amusement
I play my part as you
Laugh from your ivory tower
I make my way to her
room
To deliver swift abuse
Quick to ascend the stairs
We’ll see what comes of you
As I enter her ancient chambers
The witch has recognized my presence
I clutch a knife to inflict a
Flesh wound proportional to my hurt
My inertia is cut short when
I crash into the wall and then she
Calls to dark forces and black magic
Thwarting my final attempts
This is my last requiem for lonely hearts
Try and think of something quick
To part the tiles and take me under
I hated the life I threw away much more than you could know
Yet when faced with its nearing end my body froze
Out comes Morgana
From her
swindled and decrepit coffin
She called it "abode" for however long
And broke the silence
“O how the stones
Thrown against your bones
Ache in sympathy
And as you had known perfection
Failure to know your heart had sown your downfall
You could not stand complacency
You turned it to something else
With this
Breathe your last
Seal your lips and close your eyes
It’s over”
There’s nothing left for me in this world
As even the skies seem to agree
The hour is ripe for my departure
Oh the humanity
One minute is all you need
The walls are closing in and I don't think I can get away with it this time
The walls have closed
In my final moments
My martyrdom devolves into
A tug of war between self preservation and the ego
Settling for self conceit
There is no room for hesitation
Lest you appear a child playing with knives
Slicing the jugular - this will be the easy part
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